there is no happy medium.

this weekend was great. i refound my religion (i think, or something). "the exorcism of emily rose" caused me to realize that catholicism is either right, or as good as it gets, and i think im totally catholic now instead of the "confused" that i once considered myself. anyways, i went to church on saturday and for the first time since i was like, seven, i paid attention. it was awesome. and the funny thing is, this was a whole sermon on forgiveness. hah! im also planning to do "confession" now. now i literally havent done that since second grade (i skipped the confirmation one cuz im really afraid of priests). its pretty stupid to "Refind" ur religion due to a movie, but i think its a wise decision no matter what. its just that lately ive found myself caring about soo much insignificant shit, but its like "what do i really have to care about?" well i guess ill start caring about jesus. i even pray b4 i go to bed now. its so cool. and the yankees won today, i take that as a sign. hah! im ridiculous.

on saturday i saw amy, and she leaves for london in 5 days. omgosh we just hung out at her house and baked cookies (how domestic) but it was lovely. ill seriously miss that girl. she gave me a lot of good advice on a lot of stupid shit, it seems like my current life is like becoming hers circa last year. she put shit bluntly and as much as it was stuff i didnt want to here, im better off hearing it. andd the cookies were spectacular! ill miss that girl bunches, it will be hard not seeing her for a WHOLE year. but well def talk whenever we can, and possibly be penpals..haha. oh well.

i need to sleep, but i feel compelled to "do stuff in order to confirm the successfulness of my future." i am horrible.